But I have to remember....His time, not mine. I wasn't sure how to post about another negative test result...or IF I could. But, it is part of this journey. I was the most disappointed than ever before. I think because I felt everything that someone pregnant feels. I don't think I imagined everything. I even had 2 faint positive tests. That is the kicker. My doctor said it could have been a chemical pregnancy. She said my chart and everything looked soo good.
I guess the biggest heartbreak was that I got Scott all excited too. He saw the lines on the pregnancy tests, he really believed too. I was more hurt about him being hurt than anything. This was the first time I really got him into it. He is always the one ... "Hope, don't get your hopes up until you are sure...". My voice of reason.
I woke up this morning, watched him sleep a little, the sun pouring in the window. I looked over at the picture of us on the table and thought...how blessed I am! I was almost ashamed that I am asking for more. I sit at my desk with family pictures surrounding me....so blessed. I have a good job, I live in such a beautiful city. I have Christian friends and such a wonderful church. I AM BLESSED!
Thank You Jesus for what You have given me, thank You for what You took away!
This really is therapeutic huh?