Sunday, October 11, 2009

Shattered...

hurt, not a big enough word. Broken...no shattered.

The last two days have been a blur. Thursday went from excitement, packing and worrying about what I might forget to confused, scared, doubting, numb.

Then Friday. Started early and hasn't ended it feels like. I think the oxygen levels in the air dropped immensely. I couldn't breathe very well from about 10 am ... well, still the air is thin.

Super detailed, long version was mailed to my family and friends. My brain says copy and paste, but I just don't want to put it all out there yet. Maybe if it isn't out there all the way it will somehow not be true.

Over.

In some sentences I guess it is a good word. The two hour wait to get seated is finally over. The boring season of Big Brother is over. But, this sentence...well, sucks. Isaac, our son is over.

There is like a .000000000000000000000009% it isn't, but that is the optimist in me. Who is slowly dying, when she flat lines I will let you know.

The low down, the punch line is this. Three possible summations to the woman who birthed a baby in my heart.

  • Rebecca is a pathological liar. She wasn't pregnant, there is no baby and it all was some evil, sick, diabolical joke with Scott and I the butts.
  • Rebecca is a pathological liar. She is pregnant about to have a baby but had no intentions of giving him to us. Maybe she is mentally disturbed, or maybe she thought when we got there that we would be so in love with the baby that anything she asked for we would give it to her.
  • This is what I hope is the reason...she loves this baby so much that the closer it got the more she couldn't give him up. I could understand this, I could forgive this and move on. I wish she would have told me this sooner (even today she said in a text that she wanted us to have him). This unfortunately is not the most likely.

I was so overwhelmed with love for him, so relieved my arms were not going to be empty much longer that I let things that didn't fit slide. Little things here and there, my hope and trust and love for her made me ignore them and chalk them up to her being scattered or overwhelmed herself. Then she didn't meet me in IL. My antennas went up a bit, but still...all I could think of is what if. What if Isaac is in her belly, nothing would keep me from him not even my spidey senses.

Then, this week happened. Multiple lies, multiple excuses for things and then the HUGE admission she wouldn't sign her rights to us unless the father did first. This all just started all of a sudden. I asked her why the sudden change? She had always assured us...sometimes over stating how she knew the father (at one time 3 fathers...then 2, now 1) never wanted a child, wouldn't want him now and would sign no matter what. She wouldn't answer.

We called the lawyer and told him what she said, I assumed we could still get a risk placement and bring him home - NOPE! If no termination papers were signed by her, three things could happen. She has to take him home, DSS sends him to foster care or the father's family can petition for placement with them. Notice how we are not in those options.

After repeatedly asking for her to call, and her repeatedly giving me excuses she didn't call me. So I had to text her the above scenarios. She said oh, I know. I planned to take him home and keep him until Josh signed his rights away. GASP

One of our last texts was this...So you don't sign your rights to us, you take him home and bond with him and him with you for 30 or so days. You change your mind and keep him. Or, you don't sign your rights to us, you take him home and bond with him and him with you for 30 or so days. Josh won't sign his rights, so you won't and you keep him. Either way we walk away empty. She didn't respond.

There are numerous other things from this past week, all of these and the past things made the lawyer advise us that something was wrong and we shouldn't make the trip and we should call her bluff and inform her we were backing out. We asked him to talk to her, tell her the situation and let her know to communicate with him and only him.

We haven't communicated with her, she did text me at 7 am that she wanted us to take the baby, she was scared because Josh' family had been calling and she won't answer. Funny, how did they get her number...new phone since being out of rehab and he has been in prison and she said she hadn't talked to him since the night they had sex. Plus she told me Tuesday that Josh didn't know she was pregnant. I didn't respond per the lawyer, but I wanted to.

Needless to say, we are devastated. We cried so many tears that I feel a little dehydrated. So many emotions, anger, hurt, sadness, hopeless, embarrassed...I could go on and on. How does one prey on the hope and longing of an infertile couple who want a baby.

I know my girls in IL are so angry and hurt too, if they find her and she isn't pregnant...well, one way or another she will be in the hospital next week.

I can't pray for her. Not for good things, more like migraines, boils on her butt, sudden massive hair loss or a yeast infection that won't go away.

That .0000000000000000000000000000009% chance he is still ours keeps me from saying some pretty ugly things to her. UGH

I hurt for our parents who loved us through almost 20 years of longing, and then 6 months of waiting. Friends and other family are hurting too, it is bigger than just Scott and I.

I don't know if there really is a baby in Aurora IL, but there was one here. In our hearts and in so many other ways. It is like a death, I don't want to compare this to a miscarriage - I have friends who have lived through those and I can't imagine a live growing baby in the belly there one day and not the next. But, this is a death as well. He was in our hearts, implanted just as strongly as if he was in my belly. Scott loved him. He glowed when he said my son.

God's grace is sufficient. I want to feel Him wrapped around us. I long for Him to give us peace. It will come, I know He loves us and has a plan. Only He can get us through this, through family and friends and His presence. I need it. We need it.

Scott is..., I can't describe it. He has cried, he has crumbled, he is gasping for air as well. But, he has held me. He has let me hurt and cry and crumble in his capable arms. His warm, safe, loving, big arms hold me tight to him so I can hear his heart and I know that no matter the storm it beats for me. He is My best friend, (well, him and Leslie :) )my love and my safe place. I hope he feels the same about me.

We are going to go to the mountains to get away from all the baby stuff in the house, all the sad eyes. All the hurt and oh honey's. I love my family and friends, but we just need some down time...us time.

Please pray for her. Pray for her to get boils on her butt to get Jesus. Pray that she tells us what really has happened. Pray for my family and friends and all the hurt they are feeling eases. Pray for Scott and I to get to a point that this isn't as raw and painful as it is today.

I am so blessed to have called and talked to friends on Friday that helped me through so much. Even though they weren't right here to hold me or cry with me, they were here in other ways.

I don't know how soon I will post again, this place is full of Isaac. Full of hope and happiness. And, as beautiful as it was...it is now pieces of our lives laying at His feet and we now wait for Him to help us put them back together again.

76 comments:

  1. There are no words here. i can't even begin to imagine how hard this is for you, Scott, and your family and friends. Please know that I am praying for all of you.

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  2. i am so sorry for you and scott. I am praying for you as well.

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  3. I am so terribly sorry. This is so heartbreaking to read so I can't imagine how heartbreaking it is for you in life. Please know I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. xxxx

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  4. I was shocked to read this, and am heartbroken for you. What comes to mind are the words Joseph said in Genesis 50:20, "Even though you planned evil against me, God planned good to come out of it." I don't know what He's got planned, but I know that it's for your best, and I'm believing that you will one day be able to look back and see what He was doing. In the meanwhile, I'm praying for you guys.

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  5. Oh Hope...I'm devastated for you. I've read of this happening to couples and get so angry. I just can't imagine someone being so heartless to do this to you and Scott. I'm sorry. Covering you and Scott in prayer, sweet girl.

    God has a plan. I know we can't see it right now, but He has a perfect plan that involves you and Scott and a baby.

    Take all the time you need to grieve. It is a terrible loss.

    Love ya, girl.

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  6. no words can help or heal just know how much GOD does love you and how many prays will be lifted up for you and your family

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  7. I have been checking daily for updates and was shocked and saddened to read this. I have been praying for you this past week and will continue to pray. I pray for the comfort and peace that can only come from God - who is all sufficient.

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  8. I emailed you a longer reply, but wanted to say again how much I love you and am thinking of you.

    One of my favorite worship songs has this chorus:

    I need you Jesus...to come to my rescue...where else can I go?

    Father, I pray that you will come to Hope and Scott's rescue right now. Heal their hearts, cover their marriage....

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  9. I am so sorry, I can't even imagine your pain right now...
    I am praying for you and your family and friends....

    michelle

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  10. You and I have never met, probably never will - but please know that I will be holding you, your family and friends and even her in my hearts and prayers.

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  11. There is no words that I can think of to help you or ease your pain. I am sorry, maybe there will be a miracle. SOON!

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  12. Dear Hope - I came over to your blog from Heart Cries and am so so sorry for what you are going through now. Having recently gone through a failed adoption (birthmom changed her mind at the last minute after giving birth, and after we got there and had held the baby etc.) it is heartwrenching and so very painful. It has been three months now and while still upsetting, it has gotten easier with time. Please know you are not alone in this journey and that we will be praying for you. Please feel free to email me directly at chucknrisa@yahoo.com if you want to talk to someone who has been in your shoes and can fully relate to what you are going through. No pressure though, just wanted to be available to you if needed.

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  13. I am so sorry. No other words can even come to my mind. I cannot imagine. I am praying that His grace that is sufficient will cover you. I am praying for peace that passes all understanding to fill your heart and soul. Please Jesus, come to their rescue. (perfect reference by Rebekah)

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  14. Anonymous10:49 AM

    I am so sorry you and your husband are going through this nightmare. Praying for peace for both of you.

    Liz in GA

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  15. I cant not imgaine what you are going through right now. I will pray for you and Scott.

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  16. Oh, Hope...my heart breaks for you. My Christian response to you: this sucks. Majorly. I cannot even begin to imagine your heartbreak, and I know my words cannot help, but I am so so so sorry. I agree with Rebekah, "I need You, Jesus, to come to my rescue."

    I will pray for you and Scott, and even Rebecca, since you asked (very generous of you, btw, and speaks highly of your character).

    I will weep for you as I pray...

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  17. I just wanted to drop by to tell you that I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope you find peace and your pain is eased!

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  18. Coming here from Rebekah's blog. I hate that I've just now found your story and am joining at such a painful time...I hope to follow along during your time of great joy as well.

    My heart is breaking for you. It is a death you are experiencing: the death of a dream and the death of a life for your child. Isaac is very real and very much your child that you have lost and don't discount that just because you haven't felt him in person.

    I am so, so sorry. I'm thankful you have such amazing friends and family to hold you up during this time. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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  19. I too am coming from Rebekah's blog and I too am so sorry that I am just now finding your story at such a heartbreaking time. I am so so sorry for you and your family. I can't figure out how there are people in the world who would cause so much pain and hurt to another human being- intentionally. I am praying for you.

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  20. I'm here from Rebekah's blog as well -- my heart is breaking for you and I know that words aren't sufficient right now and no matter what the excuse, Rebecca's behavior us unfair to you. Your statement that you were going to the mountains to get away reminded me so much of the Steven Curtis Chapman song "The Mountain"...

    "I would love to live up on this mountain/And keep the pain of living life so far away/But I know I can't stay/Up on the mountain"

    I am praying for peace and comfort for you and your husband right now and I hope you find the healing you need on your own mountain.

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  21. Here from Rebekah's and all I can say is that there are many here who will cover you in prayer. I'm so sorry for what you are being put through and I struggle with how life can be so unfair to us.

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  22. I have no words for you, but I am sooooooooooo soooooooooo sorry. You have a lot of people thinking and praying for you all right now.

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  23. I am so sorry. Words can't even express how sad this whole situation is. I will pray for all of you.

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  24. I am so, so sorry. My heart is SO heavy for you guys. I wish I had the words to express how my heart aches for you and just how sorry I am that you're experiencing this. I will share some lyrics from one of my favorite songs...I think it's applicable as you guys are dealing with this horrible storm...I pray it passes soon and that you are able to find refuge in our heavenly father.

    "When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with you above the storm. Father you are King over the flood...I will be still and know you are God." Praying for you.

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  25. I am so sorry for your situation. My heart breaks with you. Know that you will be in my prayers. Kim from MI

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  26. I am here from Rebekah's. My husband and I also went through a similar situation 3 years ago. There is nothing anyone can say or do to make this right for you. It's not right and I am just so very sorry, as I know how badly your hearts are hurting. My prayers are with you and Scott.

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  27. sending you strength

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  28. I came across your blog through another blog...Here's the thing. There was woman in IL named Rebecca who pulled a major hoax on thousands of blog followers a few months ago. I don't know if you ever heard of little April Rose? Rebecca has scammed many, many people before. She pretended she was going to give her unborn son to an adoptive couple, then said she was pregnant with a terminally ill baby. Sick things like that. I am hoping and praying that the Rebecca you are talking about, who lives in IL is not the same psychotic Rebecca who pulled the April Rose scam a few months ago, who also lives in IL. The April Rose blog has been taken down, but if you google April Rose you should be able to find a cached version. Maybe even compare the writing style.

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  29. Miranda1:42 PM

    I just saw this and I'm unnerved.

    This has been done before, and by a woman named Rebeccah. Praying for you and your family and hoping it's just a HUGE coincidence, but if not, maybe you'll be able to find some form of legal reparations....

    http://www.google.com/search?client=safari&rls=en&q=beccah+beushausen&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8

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  30. I'm here through a prayer request shared through another blog. It is absolutely heartbreaking and infuriating what has happened. My heart aches for you, and I pray that the raw pain for you all eases through time.

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  31. I'm so terribly sorry for you, Scott and all those who have been waiting and hoping for you. I just want you to know that you are not alone. Wishing you peace and love.

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  32. Please know that you and Scott are in my prayers. Im so sorry that this has happened.

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  33. This story sounds all too familiar. Please visit this blog post for content (I don't know the author of the blog but the content is what is important here)

    http://littleaprilroseisfake.blogspot.com/

    I am so sorry for what you have gone through.

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  34. I am so sorry for all you are going through. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  35. My heart aches for you. Please know you are in my prayers. I am just so very sorry.

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  36. Anonymous4:45 PM

    I am so sorry for you and your family. i am praying for you

    Lisa from FC

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  37. I am hurting for you right now...hopefully it is comforting to know that "the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered."
    Praying God's love and comfort on you now!

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  38. Praying for you and Scott. My heart hurts for you. Please know that no matter what there is an entire community of women out here whom you've never met who are praying with you and holding you close. Our paths may all be different, our journey's are the same.

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  39. I am so sorry for your pain. I live in NC as well. I know you will have to grieve the loss of this baby, but when your hearts are no longer heavy (in time), please look up Christian Adoption Services in Matthews NC. They only do NC birthmoms and couples, no out of state travel, and you are well protected from scams such as this. Here's their number, when you are ready--704-847-0038.

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  40. Failed adoptions are very comparable to miscarriages. You grieve the same. I've unfortunately had to go throug both. Just know that you are not alone. There are no comforting words to make this all better and there never will be. I am so very sorry.

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  41. Here from Rebekah's blog, too. I'm so very sorry. RB is right that what you are feeling right now is similar to a miscarriage and your pain is very, very real so don't let anyone minimize it. When we went through a failed adoption last year we grieved really, really hard for a few days and it helped us, at least, to totally give in to the hurt and sit in our grief until we were ready to move on. Going away is a great idea, I hope you are able to have some moments of peace, rest and even laughter while you are together and away from everything. I'm sending prayers.

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  42. How awful. I have heard of things like this, and can't even imagine. I am a follower of Heart Cries by Rebekah, and I am a mother of two. I can't imagine everything you have gone through (and are going through) in your quest to become a family. And the hope of your family and friends as they go on the journey with you...My prayers are with you and your family as you decide what to do next. Keep going forward! Please don't give up.

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  43. I am so sorry for you and your family!! Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!!
    I can't even imagine your pain right now...

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  44. Wow, that really sucks. I know that you and your husband will get through this. Time heal;s all things ;O)

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  45. I'm so sorry. I hope you find peace and your heart heals. I know this is a hard time for you and your husband. Take your time and mourn, because it truly is a loss much like death.

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  46. I am so sorry. Please know you are being lifted up in prayers.

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  47. You have already heard this many times, but I am SO SORRY that you have had to go through this. It SUCKS, it truly does, and you have every right to feel angry, irritated, mad and sad. I don't think anyone would fault you for that.

    You both are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  48. I am so, so sorry. You are in my prayers.

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  49. Anonymous11:05 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I know that at times like this God's purposes can seem so unclear...He can feel so distant. But you summed it up best. His grace IS sufficient! He will meet you right where you are. Cling to what you know to be true: God is all sovereign, He is all good, and He is WITH you! Check out a song called "Hold My Heart" by Tenth Avenue North. Prayers to you!

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  50. please file a report with adoptionscams.net.

    you will find information about the adoption fraud run by Rebecca of the April Rose blog at one of my blogs:

    http://www.tellthechurch.blogspot.com/

    whether the young woman you are dealing with is the same or another, I hope you will find justice, healing and peace.

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  51. I'm so sorry for your horrible heart-breaking situation. I can say that I do know how you feel. We were matched and spent 4 months growing a relationship and after the baby was born (we were there), the b-parents changed their mind. In a crazy turn of events, they relinquished at 7 days old and our story ends good. I know that's not always the case and I pray that God grants you and Scott strength to pick up the pieces and continue on.

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  52. Oh my goodness. I'm so very sorry for what you're going through. God is good, and He has a plan for you. He knows what the outcome is, so hold on tight to Him, fall on Him and He will be your source of strength.

    My prayers are with you.

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  53. I truly hesitated bring the April-Rose situation up w/ Bekah, but I see others have already done it. Please read through the Tell the Church blog that is listed above, this sounds so much like Bekah and what she's done to others. This woman is very sick and needs help. I hope my gut feeling is wrong, I hope it's something else, but please have your attorney look into it.

    I am praying for healing for you and your family. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling right now.

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  54. Anonymous9:26 AM

    I have no words...just PRAYERS. Take care of each other.

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  55. My heart breaks for your loss even though I don't know you personally.

    I will be praying today (throughout the day) for the arms of Jesus to wrap around you and your husband - and for His very near presence in this truly desperate time.

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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  56. I am at a complete loss for words. I am so, so sorry you are going through this. My heart is hurting for you and your dear husband.

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  58. I am so sorry for your loss and all the pain you are going through. I just recently suffered a miscarriage and while reading your blog I did actually think this is pretty much the same. You had a baby and then you didn't. You never got to see the baby or hold it or anything but you loved it just the same. Please know that I cried for you like I cried for my own baby and just want to support you any way that I can from afar. You are in my prayers!!

    At first when I was reading your story I though how awesome! They are going to have a baby on or around Oct 10th, my birthday! I am from Chicago, my Aunt lives in a small city near Rockford and my dad lives in Rockford. It is neat to read about people who are in an area you are familiar with. You sort of feel closer to them somehow. I am sorry it ended up this way. Someday I know you will find the good in all of this. God will guide you through it!

    My Aunt and Uncle (the ones near Rockford) went through a few failed adoptions and it hurt so much. They now have a 9 year old that they adopted when she was 1 month old! Something will work out for you!

    I will continue to pray for you, your family and your friends. I will pray that she gets a boil, er I mean that she learns from this and truly finds The Lord too.

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  59. I'm praying for you. I don't understand what drives people to do such dishonest things to others.

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  60. I know you are hurting right now, and I am so sorry for what happened to you. I have no idea what pain you are going through right now.

    I would recommend that you contact Lorrie Steer at Tell The Church blog, and also contact EJ Saddler, at http://mythoughtsonaprilrose.blogspot.com/

    EJ has stopped investigating Beccah Behshusasen, but I am sure that she would share info and contacts with you. If this is the same woman, she needs to be held accountable for the lives she has shattered and has continued to shatter.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  61. I wish that I had words bigger than I am so very sorry. You have a lot of people thinking and praying for you and your husband. I sincerely hope that something happens and you are able to find the truth out, if for nothing else then for the closure. I wish that I could help to take away some of the pain and hurt that you are feeling right now.

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  62. We have never met, but my heart cries for you. This is something no one should ever have to experience. I wish I could take the pain away for you. Like many others, I will petition the Father on your behalf.
    Lisa in CA

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  63. Rachael12:51 AM

    I am Rebekah's sister (Heart Cries) and I just wanted you to know how terribly sorry I am to hear of this awful news.

    I will pray for you, and I'll be praying that your Rebecca gets butt boils- yes I will!! Because that's the kind of woman I am. I just hate injustice!

    This is horrible, horrific news. I know from my sisters journey how much hope hangs in the balance of the waiting game. Nothing I could say could take your pain away- I know, but I am with you tonight- devastated, and angered by your loss of hope.

    I pray that God would cover you with His GRACE, and give you abundant comfort in this difficult time.

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  64. Shauna1:17 AM

    You don't know me, but I just read your story and my heart is absolutely breaking for you. I am so sorry. There is nothing I can say that will make you feel better, but just know you and your family are in my prayers. I am just sickened by this. I hope Beccah gets help so no one else gets hurt like this before, even though she has done this before, she needs it seriously.

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  65. :( I hope that tomorrow is a better day...enjoy that deep breath of mountain air; the beauty of the mountains always make me feel better.

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  66. Tracy T.11:08 AM

    I poped over from Rebekah's blog too. My heart bleeds for you and I know that there's really nothing I can say to make you beel better, but I am so sorry that you're huting over this situation. You and Scott are in my prayers.

    Tracy

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  67. Praying for you, Hope. I am so, so sorry.

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  68. Oh, God. I am so so sorry. And I have to say, in my opinion, this is MUCH worse than a miscarriage (and I've been through five of those). My thoughts are with you.

    Mo

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  69. Dearest Hope,
    I have followed you for some time!
    I was anxiously waiting with you for this baby.

    My chest physically hurts for you!!! I KNOW!!! This happened to us.....not once, but twice.
    Two times in matches that did not end with a baby coming home.

    I know of this shattering that you describe!!!
    I wish there were something I could do....say.........
    it's the painful, risk taking side of adoption.

    Love and peace to you both!!! I'm very sorry!!

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  70. Dearest Hope,
    I have followed you for some time!
    I was anxiously waiting with you for this baby.

    My chest physically hurts for you!!! I KNOW!!! This happened to us.....not once, but twice.
    Two times in matches that did not end with a baby coming home.

    I know of this shattering that you describe!!!
    I wish there were something I could do....say.........
    it's the painful, risk taking side of adoption.

    Love and peace to you both!!! I'm very sorry!!

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  71. My God, how devastating. Please know that I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers all the way from Arizona.

    Allie

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  72. I've just been introduced to your blog...I am sitting her in tears. What a hearbreaking, shattering time. I am so so sorry. I am adding myself to the hundreds of cries that are going up to Heaven for you.

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  73. There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss
    and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
    I will be better not because of genetics, or money or because I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
    I have longed and waited.
    I have cried and prayed.
    I have endured and planned over and over again.
    Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
    I will notice everything about my child.
    I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.
    I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
    I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.
    My dream will be crying for me.
    I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
    Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
    I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.
    I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
    I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body.
    I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
    I have prevailed. I have succeeded.I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort.
    I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
    I listen.
    And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.
    I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard.
    I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
    I have learned to appreciate life.
    Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.
    ~Unknown

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  74. My heart goes out to you and your husband. We too are waiting for a baby to come fill the gapping void in our hearts, but I cannot even imagine what it must feel like for you both right now. I am sooooo sorry...and will include you, your family, and your friends in my prayers tonight. I would like to share this quote with you...one which someone shared with me when we began our adoption journey. It won't help to heal your heart right now, but maybe it will help you in the future months as you "wait" for a little one.

    "Waiting is not doing nothing, it is surrendering and trusting." -Anonymous

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  75. Hello! I have to tell you that I stumbled on your blog through another blog that I was using for work. But, I felt like I should share with you too.


    I am the Community Manager for AdoptionVoices.com. It's like FaceBook for adoption, I guess you could say. Anyway, there is a whole group of people who have suffered what you have suffered here...including one of my best friends. I thought you might like to connect with some people that truly know what you are going through.

    Let me leave you the formal invitation. GOOD LUCK! It's infuriating!

    Formal Invite:

    I wanted to personally invite you to participate in AdoptionVoices for free by adding a profile for yourself (or your family) and connecting with others who share a similar passion for adoption. You can events, create and host groups, upload success videos, etc. We think you would be a perfect fit!

    To join, simply go to www.adoptionvoices.com and click on the "sign up" box in the top right corner.

    It only takes about 5 minutes to set up a quick profile.

    Please let me know if you have any questions; it would be my pleasure to assist you in any way I can.


    See you on AdoptionVoices! ;)

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