Well, I am sitting here at work...not getting much done. My period is due this weekend and all I can think about is .. is this the month. I hadn't obsessed at all until today...and now that is all I can think about. And I have these pictures of Lily on my desk and I can get lost in them. I can't wait for a visit. I want to test so badly....but, I don't want to ruin the weekend with a big ole negatory!
I went with Leslie to meet her parents before their big trip to St. Barths. They are so nice, and they make a wonderful couple. You know how sometimes you can look at people and wonder what on earth attracts them to each other...they are so different. But, you can look at them and they just 'fit'. Her dad said the sweetest thing. Leslie and her mom were walking around with Colin and Devin her nephew....and he said..."Leslie is such a good mom". Then he told me a little about how Burt and her helped raise Devin and that they did such a good job with him too. Mothers say things like that, but for it to come from your daddy...I thought it was special enough to tell Leslie. We got home and watched American Idol...YES, I watch it...and was so glad Taylor won.
Well, I got ambushed and received a call from Doug, our church music director. He informed me that I WILL be singing...and just wouldn't take my excuses not to. He has an amazing voice and has no reason to be nervous. I on the other hand just had a wave of nausea just thinking about it. I don't know how I will be able to get up there. *SHIVER* It is all BURT's fault, and I will get him back!!! Burt gets right up there too...he isn't at all nervous. I wonder if I can get sick on Wednesday morning????
Well, I am leaving early from work for Therapy...PHYSICAL, not mental..ha ha! Sooo I had best get back to work and get some things done.
Ohh...and the song I am supposedly singing is 'Child of God' by the Hoppers.
Child of God, do not be afraid
Child of God, trust and obey
He will walk with you in the way
Child of God, do not be afraid.
Lost and wandering in a world of sin
Why would God ever let me in
A cry rang out from Calvary's blood-stained hill
"Child I love you, and I always will".
Time will pass, and eyes will start to fail
Tired and weary, life becomes so frail
But I'll not make this final walk alone
The Lord will Lead me to my heavenly home.
Child of God, do not be afraid
Child of God, trust and obey
He will walk with you in the way
Child of God, do not be afraid.
Hold to God's unchanging hand
Hold to God's unchanging hand
Build your Hope's on things eternal
Child of God, do not be afraid.
I hope I do it justice, and not fall, trip, yawn, sneeze, cough, spit, pass out, forget, cry, laugh, poot, throw up...annnything weird! I just got to remember to do it for Jesus!
Hi Hope! Kari from FC here. Just wanted to give you a bit of encouragement. I started singing on our Praise Team at church about two years ago. I sang a special music number that touched my heart and from that song, our music director wouln't take no for an answer either. I WAS PETRIFIED the first time I got up on stage to sing, but I knew I had a message to share and I knew God would help me through. I practiced for weeks and weeks, and I had it perfected!! The big day came, and I stood up to sing, and I had to hang on to the podium to keep myself on my feet I was shaking so bad!!! The song was not as perfect as I had practiced, but it blessed many. The first time I sang with the Praise Team, I was just as scared, but out in the congrigation, looking back at me was Martha with the biggest smile I had ever seen! I just kept looking at Martha and I made it through the first sunday. For many weeks I would look for Martha's smile and she would help me through. Several weeks later, I got a card in the mail from Martha, thanking me for joining the praise team! It's amazing how God works! I thought she was blessing me and she thought I was blessing her! Anyway, the point of my ramble is that if you have a message to share, you share it in any way you can. It doesn't have to be perfect to bless people, as long as it comes from the heart, and I know how big your heart is!!!
ReplyDeleteKari,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your encouragement and story. It really helped. Sunday night, the plan was to practice it on stage so I could get used to the monitors and the mic and such. I assumed noone would be in the auditorium, but ... THERE WERE! I am sure I was 40 shades of red but I made it through. I am still so nervous, but I think doing it up there one time really helped. It is scheduled for next wednesday. My parents are supposed to come down and I think that will make me just that much more nervous.
I did receive several compliments and Doug, our music director said it was beautiful. He is the type that would say...You need more practice or something constructive if he didn't think it was any good. So that made me feel so much better. EEEK I need a new dress..lol.
Thank you so much again, and so what are you singing next?
How did it go? :) (Coming from one who asked to lip sync in the Resurrection Cantata.)
ReplyDeleteIt is NEXT Wednesday. I hope, ha ha. I hope I don't chicken out.
ReplyDeleteHow are you? I went to your blog, but I can't find it. I love Lilys blog, she is so precious. I love the picture of mom and her. I can't wait to take a picture with her for my very own :)
Talkin to mom right now....was a 2 minute call turned into...hmm 15 minutes and counting. :)
Now...talking to daddy...that will be quick... OK, not this time!! They are chatty kathys today!
GET OVER IT HOPE!!! YOU ARE GOING TO DO A WONDERFUL JOB. YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL VOICE AND THE SONG HAS SUCH A POWERFUL MESSAGE. YOU WILL SING, IF I HAVE TO DRAG YOU ONTO THE STAGE!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteBURT DON'T YELL AT ME. I could see YOU...dragging ME...that would be the day!
ReplyDeleteYou do it all the time so you have no fear...so BITE ME. Just wait til I tell Leslie on you for being so mean. I should tell her about you going out to eat and NOT to church last night huh???? Don't mess with me buster.
2 MORE DAYS!! I get a twinge of nausea everytime I think about it. I don't know what I am going to wear either. Wednesday night is usually pretty casual so I am thinking ...hmm I am thinking I need to go shopping!! HA HA!
ReplyDeleteI should call Leslie and see if she wants to go...whatcha think Burt??? Leslie...ME...in the mall alone?
MUHAHAHAHAHAHa