This was something I posted in my journal on the 18th.
About 8 months ago, I was at work. I work for the lab, but not in the lab very much. There is an office separate from the hospital that I work in. I stayed late one evening and went over to the lab and a patient walked in. Typically there are at least 2 other people in there that can take the paperwork and draw the patient's blood. But I was it! I could see this lady was upset, she was teary eyed. Her lab order was for a beta HCG. It will tell how the baby is progressing by a number. If it is low, then it is probably miscarrying. I wasn't sure if she knew she was pregnant or what. I usually don't ask, as you know...I am sensitive to pregnancy. Well, my mouth opened and I just started talking. I asked her if she was to find out if she was pregnant. She said, "I am 8 weeks and went in for my ultrasound and exam and the doctor couldn't find a heartbeat or the baby." She sobbed and said "they told me my baby was dead and that I have to have this to see if I will need to have a D&C or if I passed it naturally or will soon." My heart broke, I could feel my throat tighten and my eyes well up. I walked her back to the chair and she grabbed my hand and said "My God is good though, if this is meant to be, it will be." I smiled and squeezed her hand and said He is good and we are going to pray that that baby is ok and God can make it so! I drew her blood through tears, and we held hands and prayed over that blood. The tech that was there to run it was a Christian friend of mine and she cried at the story as well, and prayed too. I walked back out and told her it would be about 30 minutes for the test to run but she could wait there. She asked for me to take her to the chapel so she could pray. I walked her around and left her there, and went back to take care of some things. My heart and mind was so heavy for her. I wondered if I encouraged her enough, did I make her feel worse by saying God has a plan, did I give her a higher expectation that things would be ok...when they might not. I went down a few hours later and checked with Dee. She almost shouted when she told me, her numbers were PERFECT! That baby was there and when she called the doctor with the labs he said he was calling the patient in for another ultrasound the next morning. That he was sure she was losing that baby. I waited a week, a little afraid to call her, the devil was making me doubt what God can do! I called her and said, hi, I know you probably don't remember me...I am the girl that drew your blood the other day. She stopped me cold...she said, "I do remember you...Hope, you gave me just that-HOPE, I will never forget you". She told me that the doctor began the ultrasound and immediately heard the strong thump, thump, thump of the baby’s heart. There was the baby on the screen, the same one that had been empty the day before. She told me the doctor said he couldn't explain it, she told him...it was a miracle, God did it. God gave her back her baby. He said it was a miracle, yes...the doctor said that! We talked a couple of minutes, crying and praising God for this miracle. Then she said the most amazing thing to me. "Hope, when I came in, I was questioning God, I was angry and didn't know how I would tell my husband." She said, "You gave me hope, you prayed with me, you made me feel ok with whatever God had in store." "If it is ok with you, if this baby is a girl, can I name her Hope?" I could barely speak with the lump in my throat. I was in such a valley of my own, and here...when I think I don't do anything for God, I did do something. I told her that that was the sweetest, most wonderful thing anyone has ever said to me. I would love for her to do that. We prayed again and said good bye.
Today, Dee calls me. She told me that the lady came by the lab on Saturday to show her something....a beautiful, healthy almost 8 pound new bouncing baby GIRL! Her name....Ashton Hope. I was so excited, I called the mother and she told me that she was bringing the baby to see me soon. So I can see my namesake! She said that she will never forget us praying her baby back into her belly. She said the doctor told her family before she left the hospital, that this was truly a miracle. Sooo, needless to say... I have been choked up all day. God put me there for her. I have no doubt. I never stay late, and if I do...I avoid the lab. God knew I needed to be there, that Dee needed to run that test. If it had been any of the lab girls that were working that night, they are not Christian and wouldn't have prayed like we did and wouldn't have been as blessed by the result like we all were. For it to have been me and Dee taking care of her...It was all God's doing! Since then, I try not to second guess doing something out of the ordinary.
I shared this story on the Fertility site I am a member of. Also, it seems so much easier to share my faith when I type. It has given me more strength to also share it face to face. I have had several patients lately tell me that they are so blessed by my spirit or by something I say. I thank God for allowing me finally to be able to really show what he means to me. I think back how my mom would embarass me so much when she would 'preach' to people. I hear her coming out of me every day!!
These are some comments I received lately at the Fertility site:
That is beautiful!! God used you to make a difference in the woman's life -awesome!
TTCinNC
That is such a beatiful story, Im sure she is so greatful that you were there for her. Its amazing how God will put you in the right place at the right time. This is an example of how amazing God works!
Stephanie
Hope I admire you so much for the strenght that you find in God! I love how you are not afraid to share your faith on this board, knowing that there are those here that do not believe. This story is such a testimony of how God works, and how he does answer prayer and how much he loves us! I praise God that you were there for this lady and her beautiful, healthy baby girl!
Hope, thanks for sharing that story. You are truely amazing. God is able & one day we will all have our prayers answered.
SweetDallas
Hope,That is such a beautiful and heart-warming story. God works in mysterious ways. I'm happy he answered this mothers prayers. Being kind to others in their time of need is truly selfless.Baby dust....
That is such a beautiful story Hope, thanks for posting it. That story brought tears to my eyes. I remember that same exact feeling the women you helped felt. I wish someone would have been there to help me in that situation. Instead I prayed and was let down. For the longest I blamed him for taking my baby, even though I know today He only did it because something was wrong and he has my baby with him now, looking down at me everyday. You are such a blessing, and have such a big heart
Smiller
What a true deciple you are! YOu have given us all such HOPE and you remind us of our faith. Thank you for that! May God continue to bless us all!
Michelle
Hope that was so beautiful thank you for sharing, miracles do happen and I am a true believer in them. There was definately a reason you were named Hope, because you truly share that with others!!
Robyn
Of all the stories and sharing we have on this thread, this one really got me and just couldn't stop crying. Last time I cried this hard was when DH & I were anxiously waiting to see the results of our HPT when we got our BFP a month ago. Thank you for being the christian person you are and for making a difference. I know GOD will reward you with your bfp very soon and when you least expect it. I believe in miracles and in all of God's blessings and masterplan for us. I had my 1st ultrasound last week but there is no heartbeat yet and need to wait till upcoming Monday, april 24 for my 2nd ultrasound and hope we can see the heartbeat then. Oh, how I wish you had drawn my blood! You are in my thoughts
Hope, Thanks for adding truth to this site. God is so real and miracles DO happen!! You have such a good heart! Thanks for sharing your special experience with us!!
This was my reply...
I have read every comment at least twice, and I have been so humbled. I told this story to hopefully encourage someone here. I am speechless at what you have all said. As far as my faith, it does get tested and shakey...but everyday, I see something, hear something or feel something that strengthens it again. And as far as sharing it... I hope I don't offend anyone, my mother always said that it is better to let your light shine in what you say or do than to push it down someones throat. I have my beliefs and views, but I would never force them on anyone, and I respect people enough NOT to belittle them or make them feel bad for something I don't agree with. Thank you all again for your comments. I was reading them and crying and my husband thought I was upset. I handed him the laptop and let him read, and he started crying!!
then I got this reply....
Hi Hope! I just wanted to let you know that you were the topic and primary example last night at my small group bible study! We were studying the B attitudes, I believe it is Matthew 5, and we were talking about verse 15 & 16 (I think that's the right verse) about letting your light shine, and our Pastor asked us what we thought that meant. I shared with the group how you had made the comment that it is better to "let your light shine than to shove it down someone's throat". I think that is truely what "letting your light shine" is. Being a testimony to God's love and sacrifice in all that you do and letting others see Jesus in you. You are definetly an awesome example of that and I wanted to let you know that your "light" is shining and encouraging me. Thank you for who you are, and thank you for sharing it with us here on this board!
Because of Him,
Kari
This made me feel so good, and made me realize how much I appreciate what my mom taught me. Maybe one day she will read this.
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